♥ Friday, September 09, 2005 ♥

Han Qi Zhu and Cheng Jun

Originally uploaded by michelle89.

i don't want to go back to school for maths later... i am so sick and tired of studying that i was even contemplating to give up studying altogether... i just cannot concentrate on something that i have totally no interest in... why on earth did people create schools, books and studies??? i just hate studying so much that whenever i see my textbooks i have a headache... what's more with the prelims just 3 days away, whatever i read in my textbooks is not staying in my head... like what my mother told my father i am not focused on my studies and all i have on my mind is play... well i will add one more thing to that statement "and music"... i am so totally addicted to the korean songs that i have heard recently in this one week... i just want to give up studying... i dread going to school nowadays... not so in the past... i really dread waking up every morning to go to school... it's been like this since i stepped down from being a prefect... although i appear to be quite happy in school, in actual fact in my heart i just cannot wait for the last bell that signals the end of school to ring so that i can just rush out of class to go home!!! i can't stand the people, i can't stand the surroundings that are infested with mosquitos and a surrounding that is just so green which gives me a headache instead of letting me feel relax... there's not even the slightest sign of blue in school... the wooden study tables are no longer brown, they are green... there is also no one and thing in school that i can take comfort in... at least at home i have got my bed and music to take comfort in... i just hate the feeling of going to school right now... someone just save me... putting me in school is as good as dumping me into an abyss and not bothering about me!!! school just make me feels miserable... and even during certain lessons, i just have this fear that makes my heart thump wildly in fear... is this how school is supposed to be??? sometimes i just see some people that make me want to blow up in fury but i have to curb it... not that i am afraid of how they will think of me, to that i am totally immune right now... but i just don't want to waste my breath on those people... i don't like school anymore... someone just pull me out of the abyss can???